Gratitude Practice Series - My Yoga Journey

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"Uneori trebuie sa te predai inainte de a castiga" este un citat din cartea Shantaram pe care l-am si tatuat pe pielea mea, asta nu inseamna insa ca il practic tot timpul…


Am descoperit Yoga acum 8 ani in Thailanda si am fost fascinata de aceasta practica, de linistea pe care o observam. Si spun observam, pentru ca eu nu eram nici macar aproape de aceasta stare. Acasa ma antrenam constant la sala, literalmente imi torturam corpul pentru a forma acea imagine perfecta pe care o creasem pentru mine. Dar, indiferent de cum ma antrenam sau de cat timp petreceam la sala, nu reuseam sa vad acea persoana in oglinda.

Asa ca am inceput sa practic Yoga. La inceput am incercat acasa cateva clase online cu Richard Freeman, dar dupa ce am ratat prea multe sesiuni, am decis ca am nevoie de mai multa motivatie si de cineva sa ma impinga de la soate. Am intalnit Anya Glushkova si ea a fost exact motivatia de care aveam nevoie. Si timp de 1 an, cu mult focus si consistenta, am practicat Yoga si Pilates impreuna cu ea. O experienta atat de frumoasa in care am invatat atat de mult despre Yoga si despre mine. Totusi, intentia mea principala era sa devin mai flexibila si, speram, intr-o zi sa arat ca acea “yoghina perfecta" care se poate indoi cu usurinta si gratie. Nu vroiam sa accept limitele corpului meu. Si poate nici nu trebuie intotdeauna, pentru ca forma mi se apropia de idealul meu. Dar acea multumire nu venea din ceea ce vedeam in exterior, ci venea din interior. Si asta pentru ca beneficiile Yoga sunt pur si simplu uimitoare si, de fapt, chiar daca nu incepi cu cea mai profunda intentie, aceasta practica are puterea magica de a te transforma si de a te reconecta cu sinele tau suprem. Si asta este fericirea.

In timpul calatoriei mele in lumea Yoga am incercat multe tipuri de practica si am vrut sa invat mai multe. Asa ca m-am certificat printr-o experienta uimitoare oferita de profesorul si prietenul meu Julio Papi. Acolo am invatat alinierea, concentrarea si puterea si am inceput sa inteleg si sa imi simt corpul. Am devenit mai increzatoare in practica mea si am inceput sa invat si sa impartasesc experienta mea cu ceilalti, ceea ce mi-a dat un alt tip de satisfactie, aceea de a oferi.

Dupa ceva timp m-am intors la prima mea dragoste, Ashtanga si am inceput sa practic Mysore in fiecare dimineata sub indrumarea uneia dintre cele pasionate si empatice persoane, Alexandra Solomon. Si trebuie sa recunosc ca acesta este stilul meu favorit de practica. Totul de la rutina de dimineata, pana la energia si progresul pe care l-am experimentat acolo. Aici am inceput sa ma conectez cu respiratia mea, transformandu-mi practica in meditatie.

Am avut sansa sa practic si cu Tarik & Lea de la Love Ashtanga Yoga si am mers impreuna cu ei intr-o superba experienta de Yoga in Maroc. Clasele lor Mysore sunt ceva cu totul special, energia lor si a oamenilor de la clasele lor, transforma Shala intr-o alta dimeniune si aceasta a fost cu siguranta cea mai puternica experienta de Yoga de pana acum.

Anul trecut am practicat cu Ty Landrum, director al Scolii de Ashtanga Yoga Workshop din Boulder, USA, infiintata de Richard Freeman. Stilul lui contemplativ experimental si creativ de a preda dar si cursurile de filozofie in Yoga au fost de-a dreptul fascinante. 

Acum, in California, am avut sansa sa intalnesc pe unul dintre cei mai cool Yoghin, Josh Kramer si sa iau un interviu despre filozofia si practica lui de Yoga. El calatoreste in intreaga lume impreuna cu sotia sa, Ashley Galvin, impartasindu-si pasiunea si cunostintele. Si chiar daca ultimul sau program de yoga "The Challenge" de pe platforma online Alo Moves arata atat de interesanta si clasele de HandStand pe care le va tine in Bucuresti la Wellness Festival, s-ar putea sa nu fie ceea ce am eu nevoie acum. Este greu sa ignori mintea care spune "Sorina ai vrut mereu sa inveti sa stai in maini iar acum ai ocazia, asa ca incepe sa te antrenezi ca sa fii cat mai pregatita pentru asta!" Dar provocarea mea de acum este sa imi ascult corpul si sa o iau putin mai incet …

Asa ca am decis sa incep un program la cealalta extrema, care se numeste Surrender, un amestec vindecator de Yin Yoga si practica de refacere. Aici practic arta de a renunta. Nu exista nicio Chaturangas sau vreun Handstand, nu conteaza cum arata postura din afara, ci doar sa te lasi dus catre interior, purtat de gravitatie. Si stiu ca asta este ceea ce am nevoie acum, pentru ca mesajul vine dintr-un loc de intuitie si conectivitate cu corpul meu.

Sa iti asculti corpul si sa ii onorezi dorintele este atat de important si este calea pentru descoperirea si reconectarea cu adevarat la sine.

Evident, abia astept sa particip la clasele lui Josh si sa reiau Ashtanga, diferenta este ca acum nu pun asta ca obiectiv, ma predau si astept sa aflu ce a pregatit Universul pentru mine. Poate asta inseamna ca voi reusi sa stau 1 minut in maini sau ca doar ii voi admira pe ceilalti yoghini, fara sa percep un esec, ci o victorie.

Sunt recunoscatoare pentru toate experientele si profesorii mei de Yoga de pana acum si stiu ca aceasta este o cautare constanta. O expansiune eterna. Iar dorinta si constientizare de a te conecta cu tine este tot ceea ce este necesar.

Acum ma bucur de aceasta calatorie cu perne, blocuri si alte propsuri de Yoga si astept sa aflu cum este sa primesc ajutor, sa las de la sine si sa ma predau…

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"Sometimes you have to surrender before you win" a quote from the book Shantaram that I even tattooed it on my skin, this doesn't mean I practice it all times.

I discovered Yoga 8 years ago in Thailand and I became fascinated by this practice, the flow and tranquility I was observing. And there I say observing, because I was not even near that. Back home I was mostly working out in the gym, literally torturing my body to shape it into this perfect image I created for myself. But no matter what I was training or for how long, I didn't manage to see that person in the mirror. So I started practicing Yoga. In the beginning I tried online classes at home with Richard Freeman but after skipping too many sessions, I decided I need more motivation and someone to push me, so I met @anya.glushkova and she was exactly the motivation I needed. And for 1 year, focused and consistently, we practiced Yoga and Pilates. Such a great experience where I learned so much about Yoga and myself. Still my main intention was to become more flexible and hopefully one day I could look like the "amazing Yogi" that can bend with ease and grace. I didn't want to accept my body limitations. And maybe I shouldn't always, because my shape was getting closer to my ideal. But that contentment was not coming from what I was seeing outside, but from within. And that is because the benefits of Yoga are simply amazing, and in truth, even if you don't begin with the deepest intention, this practice has the magical power to transform you and reconnect with your inner divine self. And that is bliss.

During my Yoga journey I tried many ways of practice and wanted learn more. So I became certified through an amazing experience with @julio_dieguez_papi my teacher and friend, where I learned alignment, focus and strength and started understanding and feeling my body. I became more confident in my practice and started teaching and sharing my experience with others, which gave me another type of satisfaction, the one of offering.

After some time I went back to my first Yoga love, Ashtanga and started Mysore classes every morning with the most compassionate and empathic person Alexandra from @ashtanga_yoga_bucharest

And I have to say this was my most favorite way of practicing. Everything from that morning routine to the energy and progress I had experienced. It is there I started connecting with my breath, myself and transformed the asana practice into meditation.

I was fortunate to practice few times with Tarik & Lea from @loveashtangayoga and joined their beautiful Yoga retreat in Morocco. And their Mysore classes are something special, out of this world, their energy and the people in the class is literally steaming the Shala and that was definetly my best practice experience so far. 

Last year I had another amazing experience when I practiced with @tylandrumyoga and his creative and contemplating style and his philosophical approach to Yoga were simply fascinating.

Now in California I had the chance to meet the super cool and down to Earth Yogi @joshkrameryoga and interview him and to find out about his Yoga philosophy and practice. He travels all around the world together with his wife @ashleygalvinyoga sharing their passion and knowledge. And even though his latest Yoga program on @alo.moves called "The Challenge" looks so appealing to me and the HandStand Workshops he will teach here in Romania at the @wellness.festival is just around the corner, it might be not what I need right now. It is difficult to ignore the mind that says "Sorina you always wanted to learn to walk on your hands and this is the opportunity, so start practicing so you can be really prepared for this!"

But my challenge now is to listen to my body and take it slower.

So I started a program called Surrender, a healing blend of Yin and restorative Yoga. Here I practice the art of letting go. There are on Chaturangas or Handstands, it doesn't matter how the pose looks from outside, you just fold into yourself and let gravity ground you. And I know that this is what I need right now, because it comes from a place of intuition and connectivity with my body. 

Listening to you body and honoring its wishes is so important and it's the path to really discovering and reconnect with your true self.

Obviously I can't wait to join @joshkrameryoga classes, but the difference is that now I am not putting this big objective, I surrender to the path and I i wait to find out what the Universe has prepared for me. It can mean me succeeding to stay 1 min on my handstand or just admire the other yogis doing it, without perciving it a failure, but a win.

I am grateful for all my Yoga experiences and teachers until now and I know this is a constant eternal quest. To unfold and always expand. And the desire and awareness to know your self true self is all that is required. So now I am enjoying this journey with bolsters and blocks and we see how it feels to receive help, let go and surrender...


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